I grew up in a Christian home. I accepted Jesus as my savior when I was in 5th grade at AWANA in Stony Fork, Pa. ….I wish I could say that the was the beginning of a fruitful, God seeking life (that would be a little short of the truth).
I pretended to be the good little Christian girl and I got away with that all the way through high school. But, on the inside I was on a self-seeking, self-pleasing journey. When I left for college ( at the very young age of 17)…I left my Christian life behind. There were way more exciting roads to travel of course!
Anyone that tries to tell you that living a life for yourself, of partying, of self-indulgence is not “fun” is a liar! It was fun; exciting; eye-opening; glorious……for a long time. But, all the while I was doing everything I could to fill a yearning, to fill a hole that only Jesus could ever fill.
Along the way, I got pregnant, married a verbally and physically abusive man, managed to get a college degree (after 8 years and two universities), had a second child,moved from my beloved Pennsylvania, and started a career in teaching ( at-risk high school students).
I stayed in that abusive marriage for 10 years. The whole time I felt like it was up to me to fix things. It never occurred to me that the aching, loneliness that could never seem to be fixed no matter how much I tried, was the absence of the relationship that I was meant to have with Jesus. I divorced, became a single mom, met an amazing man who became my best friend, and started a new chapter of my life.
In the summer of 2007, I got an interview to go back to teaching at-risk kids at a faith-based alternative school. One of the questions I was asked at the interview was “Lisa, how is your relationship with Jesus?” (not your typical interview question) I broke down instantly. “It’s not what it should be,” I said through the tears. Well, he took a chance on me…I was hired and became the Campus Coordinator at one of the local centers.
During the course of my first year with that organization is when my life (my relationship with Jesus) actually began. One of the commitments that I had to make was to be in the Word daily. The more I read, the more I could feel that “Hound of Heaven” reaching out to me. “Come home, my daughter and rest in me…I am the only one who can fix you. I alone know the plans I have for you, plans to bring you prosperity and not disaster, plans to bring about the future you hope for.” In the spring of 2008, I re-dedicated myself to God and the hole has been filled to overflowing.
Things certainly have not been perfect, there has been tremendous struggles, but I am now no longer alone, I have found the promises that Jesus made for me even before I was born and I have found Peace….sweet Peace and a well of living water. I thirst no more.
I married my best friend on July 11, 2009. (7-11 we get free 7.11 oz slurpees every year on our anniversary, although we haven’t taken them up on that yet)
I am currently in between jobs. Hopefully, I will be hired at a place that I have had 3 interviews at: a Child Abuse Prevention center that focuses on Healthy Families.
I am letting God take care of the rest.
The journey continues…..
My life verse:
” Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will direct your paths.” ~ Proverbs 3:5,6